*my sweet surrender.

2007-08-06T15:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO and GOODBYE. stop eyeing at my feeds!

MOVE MOVE MOVED!

2007-08-03T07:28:00.000+08:00

hello people, i've moved to http://hotrotrussie.livejournal.com/ check me there!

love,
nats xox

to know your name.

2007-07-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

2007-07-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

2007-07-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

i hope you know, i hope you know.
i'm gonna miss you. (:

with love,
nathania xx.

2007-06-22T09:02:00.001+08:00

immunisation is on today. needles we love so much. (:

Make Me Wonder, will you?

2007-06-12T19:38:00.000+08:00

2007-06-06T09:36:00.000+08:00

i actually do miss you, mr "turn it on". haas. and confession night was fun i'm telling you.

2007-05-30T12:23:00.000+08:00

2007-05-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

another frustrating may day...

HOTS for Mr Blockbuster!

2007-05-23T08:25:00.000+08:00

i've got the HOTS for mr blockbuster.
oh ahmad, you know what i'm talking about.
and hey, the extra chips and chicken and salad he deserves, just because he was HOT!

2007-05-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

She is yearningFor shelter and affectionThat she never found at homeShe is searchingFor a hero to ride inTo ride in and save the dayAnd in walks her prince charmingAnd he knows just what to sayMomentary lapse of reasonAnd she gives herself awayDoes anybody hear her? Can anybody see?Or does anybody even know she's going down todayUnder the shadow of our steepleWith all the lost and lonely peopleSearching for the hope that's tucked away in you and meDoes anybody hear her? Can anybody see?If judgment looms under every steepleIf lofty glances from lofty peopleCan't see past her scarlet letterAnd we never even met her

school geek!

2007-05-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

i'm like a total school geek!

i'm tired, and sleppy and dreading maths apps next! urgh. lunch is so boring cos the rest of the friendzoes are home enjoying their television and popcorn, with super good early departures on a monday and thursday! the bell's going in 5 mins, and maths next. how nice. i so hate ms haska. not hate, hate. but completely, insanely, undoubtly dislike her teaching methods. oevrall, she's nice, but the way she teaches, i'll probably faint.

okay enough, here. the supposingly good news. i have mr tickle (HAHA!) teaching us for biz and accounts today. i thought its supposed to be good, but he just doesnt dont knw how to teach, yaw! omg. i amost died.

ps: omg my way is= oh my goodness!

daniel fast.

2007-05-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

the fast starts tmr.
and its about eating healthy.
finally i'm doing somehting right.
lord, guide me through this. (:

2007-05-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

i got my Learner's permit today! woohoo. hear me rah about it in sch, babes! yada yada.

fluoride dental

2007-05-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

i got some weird fluoride thingy as a fitting on the crown of my back molars. okay, its pretty umcomfortable, and i'm not suppose to brush my teeth tonight. but who cares? i alrd did so and now, the whole fillings are out. its not for the brushing of teeth part. but its the whole having dinner, and fillings swallowed with dinner. eew. its so gross, i'm telling ya. HAHA! i'll live la. just having those weird weird nightmarish thoughts now. like ohmy, what if the fillings adds onto the acid juices? wohkays! (ezra, thats from you) thats so random. but it wont become some werid acid i'm sure. just like it feels funny all over my mouth earlier on today.

ms saint said we're supposed to research on "fairness test" for biz studs.
"under the new laws, workers will be awarded compensation when they agree to trade away conditions such as penalty rates, annual leave loadings and public holidays."

i totally agree. well, maybe if i'm in the real world now. i'll probably not. but oh wells. this is so REAL world factual facts blah blah. HAHA! oh and, i am starting to worry about my after year 12 where should i go thing. and i've been praying, and i'll move as the spirit leads me. (: and i'll go wherever God leads me. and so, International College of Hotel Management is a choice for me. and i'm planning to apply for scholarships there, and to other unis applicable for me. (: and i'm very into Commerce Marketing. but still, i'll keep my options open. ((((;

you'll never know where you end up! LOL!

i'll slap you with my eyes shut.

2007-05-01T16:55:00.000+08:00

i'm like sloppy joe. i'm sloppy jane today. wait, just slops of both kind. got home so late frm a normal school day compared to my other days. i'm so tired and brain dead. i'm feeling like slapping this 'you' face with my eyes shut. and still, i believe i'll score. score right into your cheek, with nose flat on my palm. i'm getting so grouchy now. i'm grumped da day nathania.

Ls

2007-04-27T15:37:00.000+08:00

i got ym Ls this morning! how cool's that!? haha. okay, so 50hours spread over the next 6 months is a fair bit. and i'll get my Ps and there you go. i'll be driving. haha. praise the Lord for his constnat guidance and protection. all up to dad to get me a car now. haha. *sticks tongue out*

Becoming Jane

2007-04-18T08:20:00.000+08:00

so we had a evening/late night movie with the chicks yesterday. oh it was good.
tickets here are so expensive, which gives the clear reason why we went on a tuesday instead of any other days. this goes to all aussie that are also kiasu. and i'm serious, we're not the only ones. and my aussie friends were the one who picked tuesday. haha. so the tix costs S$ 9.60. like out weekend tix price. but thats only for a tuesday. is you were to go on any other day without concession, you have to pay AUD$15.30 at hoyts. which comes up to S$18.50. double the ticket price for a weekend show in singapore. now its butters me to a plan on having my very own cinema. okay, i was kidding. anyway, it's so expensive, but i really enjoyed becoming jane. it was so good! i seriously did plan to spend a whole expensive sleep in the cinema, but then, the show got much more intertesting later on. which was practically an hour plus later after it started. ugh! anyway, guys, you won't enjoy it. but for girls. oh its some old english literature classic where girls curtsey and guys bow. with profound english which maes you weak at your knees! oh i love it! go watch, huns. okay, i really do need to get dress now, i have a date with christine at 11.30am. i know, an hour and a half later, but its okay. i want to get dress! toodles!

disgusting results.

2007-04-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

so the reports came back today. and i had awful, awful results.
and it bottles down to appalling sums and questionares.
hate it. i so hate it!

HANDORF!*

2007-04-09T06:35:00.000+08:00

fam and friends and i, of course.
heading to handorf in an hour's time.
here i am trying to get biz studs into my brain for my test tmr.
and getting our tummies ready for pork knuckles and sausages. eew?
oh i don't think so.
heard's the deal's a yum!
and fudge, donuts and german lush.
handorf, here i come. (:

Good Friday

2007-04-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

i did have 2 jerky weeks before this, but its all good now, i suppose.
went to goodwood church this morning and it was all good. as said, its good friday! and i thank you Lord, for dying on the cross and taking away our sins. we don't deserve this, but you loved us so, and you alway love us more than we can ever think of. thank you, Lord.
after church, fam headed to chinatown to do the usual errands, just that we don't usually do it on fridays, when we usually do it on tuesday. and kidos don't join in this fun.
and Charlie's Beef Noodles Snack Shack was the BEST! they served the best ever beef noodles i have ever tried in Adelaide. still flamington's at Sydney's still THE best ever in Austraia!
haha. (; and now, i have a long weekend with heaps of activities on. and a short time for me to complete my shares proj and study for my major biz test on tuesday. picnicing tmr, church &bbq on sunday and handorf on monday. how nice. i'm packed. ad i have set my itenary for nov24th-Jan!

2007-03-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

though i said before i don't really want ot blog, but this seems the best place for me to vent the complications. fustration, in the huge mess and just you know so bloated after a really good curry dinner.
i am so full i want to puke. eew, that totally sound like s0meone. whoever.
i'm trying to get hold of a friend's blog, but its not turning up. that is so so frustrating.
for you fiona. i love talking to you each and everytime! you're so much for a listener and a cheerer. i love you.
jaimie, i wish you could spend holidays here with me.
apple, i want you to study here with me.
cai ying, i need your shoulder.
jia, i miss your laughter.
dior, lets go ear ringing like never before!
tian, come back from Germany when i'm back.
denise, u're my strength.
han, have fun in japan.
hui, tell me more about corpse and your learnings.
gu gu, i miss you alot. get well soon.
nai nai, wo ai ni!

2007-03-15T16:25:00.001+08:00

i serisouly feel on giving blogging up. its annoys me bad. maybe, i'll take it up some day, again.

2007-03-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

the great annoyance

so this is year 12. having so much to do, and endless prjects and assignment dued for the next week is like insane. i'm nto some kind of brainy person that can think instantly, but still. even i'm given days, the homework piles up tuckloads to the extent of not wanting to even do any work at all. *grunps!*

oh and, i'm having a long weekend this week. pupil free day on friday and adelaide cup on monday. ooo. how nice. (: love it! but i got a esl exam on tuesday, a essay to hand in, a buesiness essay to hand in, a tourism task to complete, and maths apps to research on. how exasperating! hate it, hate you.

"i am a very appealing person" oh yes, you are. so am, i'm telling you.

we're moving into our new place tomorrow evening. and we have heaps of stuff to unpack and pack. great! another chore and time consuming thing to do. i seem to laze alot despite mummy and daddy's encouragement towards my studies. thanks mum, thanks dad. i really needed that. but i'm not moving at all. i'm stuck.

i cried endlessly hoplessly towards task given, and in year 12., hey its no joke. teachers dont explain things to you. they go like " well, you're old enough, you should know." but how much do i know? i'm like one of the few younger ones in class. its not fair! and i'm putting in my best, grade me well.

i score a perfect 75% for maths for my first test. but boy, there was alot of mistakes. alot to improve though. and apple, you are so gonna be proud of me. i miss yuo, you know. we talked till the card ran out of money the other day. oh that was funny. it went "uh-oh" and cut. HAHA! well well, i'll call soon, love.

easter's coming! hooray!

wait, this whole entry is so much of a skip. i'm sorry blog readers.

2007-02-17T11:03:00.000+08:00

this is so frustrating. i am hungry frustrated and irritated with this blogger thing. and i got a google account. how did i do that? GRR. shares are driving me nuts!

2007-02-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

i look back at my secondary school years, and say: "these are the BEST years of my life!" i miss my besties so so much. shima, i missed you just as much!

2007-02-01T15:31:00.002+08:00

okay bronze goddess, back to school days are here.
year 12. muahahahah. sounds all good. but it isn't that good actually.
well, did like schooling cause time do flies.
but hey, cheens are over-powering us. okay, not really.
but sure will in like the next term or semester or something.
grr.
anyway, went for orientation at University of Adelaide.
kinda feel like getting into commerce though.
anyways, i'm starting to like this place quite a bit... (:

2007-02-01T15:31:00.001+08:00

2007-02-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

2007-01-28T13:30:00.000+08:00

finally, back to school tmr. well, not so finally afterall. kinda dreading it. and my head's killing me in such piercing pain...

2007-01-06T18:22:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year (belated)
oh yay! happy 2007! i'm kinda a week late to say this am i? haha.
its pretty more of a solemn year for us. thuogh i should be rejoicing in Singapore, nwo that i'm here, but... our family misses grandad(ye ye) dearly.
well anyways, we're returning for singapore on the 25th of jan, and reaching either late night, or the following day. for now, just spending the next 3 weeks here with family and friends.
and now, my eyes are in such pain, and its irritating me so much. so much to sensitivity.

2007-01-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

2007
welcoming the new year.
praise the lord, for HE is great!
we miss you ye ye.

2006-12-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO! where's santa?

merry merry christmas! send love, pls.

i'd love a card for shopping. :D

2006-12-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

missle a miss

somethings going wrong. my tummy's a pain. it's been grumbling both when its hungry or full. irritating i know. and i am pretty sure which day i'll be back next year. but i shan't post it here, should i. not too safe. LOL. i'm kidding.

i feel something's amiss. seriously.

but what is it? i haven't got a clue.

tell me, will you?

2006-12-20T17:34:00.000+08:00

starnge, why won't you step in closer?

my love for you is blind. i see that beat fleeting, will you please don't? you're driving me up the stairs.

2006-12-19T09:45:00.000+08:00

promise me tomorrow starts with you

i marvel at the times we were so close. call me soon? i missed you.

2006-12-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

back from Victoria just 3 hours to go. and yes Victoria- The Place To Be. but its just so tiring stayign in the car for 8-10hours from Victoria to South Australia. its like a trip back home to Singapore. and seeing mum and dad drive this far and this long, i can so tell that they are burnt out. tired, exhausted, yet, always doign the best they can for us kids. i love mum and dad. its like no matter what, im serious. no matter what, a parents' love is way much more than the child's love to the parent. and i'm saying it to all parents. somehow, i felt it and realised after listening to Pastor Joseph Prince sermon in the car, which has blessed me deep. (:

anyway, i've been to heaps of places in Victoria. Melbourne a definate one! and hey, DFOs there aren't cheap okay. i reckon harbourtown in Adelaide cheaper and there's prettier stuff. haha. shopppers usually do judge on these facts hokay! well, shopping wasn't the main aim for this one week holiday for our family. honestly, family grew so strongly bonded together. i feel it, and my sibs do too. i got so much closer to Samuel and Theola. and we had heaps fun taking pictures and Bedigo, Ballarat, Scenic sights, the City itself and off-city towns and all. was F-U-N!

i'm starting to like Australia, cos its bringing me closer to my family. and its showing how much family mean to me. abck in Singapore, friends were all i really cared off. but ever since i came here, i sense the importance of them to me. it doesn't matter who and how people look at me, but on what is inside me. i know. so scholar-alike, but thats how i feel. and so i am talking to denise now, my supa best friend and cousin. thanks denise for hearing me out. guess its apple's turn SOON! haha.

2006-12-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

i'll be leaving for a week's fun in melbourne tomorrow. won't be online or anything, will contact you guys when i'm back again. take care. muchloves!

2006-12-01T07:04:00.000+08:00

*off to the city i go

oh yes. exams are OVER! heaps good isn't it? and i'm jealous that 4D are having hell lotta fun now in their chalet. but its okay. i'm having fun here too. i hope. well anyways, i applied for my mcdonals but they didnt give me a reply as said so 2 weeks then, which is now. but. its alright. i'll just keep searching for a job, in town and everywhere.

heading to the city with freidns afterwards. they're returning to their country, so we're having lunch and some window shopping spree here. and im also in hunt for a job, if not, summer holidays are too boring for me. i won't be able to take it. i need to move! haha. yes, and its like paying off time and getting paid. ooo. nice.

well, pray hard i'll find a job for myself, so shopping will semm to be much more easier for me. haha. but for now, hunting for the job is the problem. prob i should fly back to singapore and work together with ahmad. though, it sounds kinda silly to do so. and i won't do it. its just random sayings.

seriously summer getting all pimped and HOT! dry and tanned. our faces go red everytime we're home, esp after a walk home from school. hot hOT HOT! well, after summer, and year 12 here i come! woo-hoo! seems heaps fast! i better ace my subjects, if not i won't get into the course i want to get in. pray for me, guys. thankies!

2006-11-19T13:05:00.000+08:00

shan is what i call- HOTSOME!
apple and cai ying is what i call- BESTIES!
family is what i call- LOVE (:

2006-11-11T07:30:00.000+08:00

* HAPPY TOGETHER
Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together
I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together
If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together
I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my lifeWhen you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life [x2]
About my lifeCall you up
Ease my mind, Ease my mind, Ease my mind!
I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my lifeWhen you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life [x2]
Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba
So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)
So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)
So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)
So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)

2006-11-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

*i feel it beating hard

its been heaps long since i last updated my blog, haven't i? i'm sorry.
well, it been heaps tiring lately. heavy work loads, and boy. i just seem to understand biology. and i really need my besties- apple and cai ying. missed you two, darls! (: apple, you better get a job and work and get a ticket here and visit me! same goes to you, cai ying. and mr SHAN KAMAL! oyu three better come here and kill my boredom. will you? i tell you, my holidays are in 3 weeks time and after that i'll be going to melbourne for a short one week holiday and spend awesome time with my family. oh and i just sent my application to work in one of the coles- myer stores alrd. but i've not got a reply yet. just sent it yesterday. and i surely wnat a job to pay off boredom and money to get new clothes again! and i pray for God to grant me my prayer. ((: and hey, i did start my running thingy okay. i started after one year of talking nothing to shan. and sweets, i did run. don't you say i did not! haha. well, exams are in 2 weeks and i have to start my mugging like the o' level kidos back in singapore. and apple, i really need your help for biology. and visit me, will you?

2006-10-22T12:08:00.000+08:00

*SHAN
my fairytale story all begins with Shan.

i have to tell a story,
a ever sweet and overwheling story.
a happiness and slpit life- time joy that changed me.
i never knew what this story was about till you started painting the colors of the book.
you wrote the many chapters,
you sprinkled the glitters of joy.
you sparkled brightly like the north star,
and you always brought to me a smile.
to all i thank you,
with love that is steadfast and strong.
my faith stays and love continues.
till the very end, I'll always LOVE YOU! (:

2006-10-12T10:09:00.000+08:00

BOSTON*
in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,this world you must've crossed...you said...you don't know me, you don't even care,you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across an open field,when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who crywhen they see youyou said...you don't know me, you don't even care,you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...she said i think i'll go to boston...i think i'll start a new life,i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...i think i'll go to boston, i think that i'm just tiredi think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...boston...where no one knows my name...

2006-10-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

the world has stopped for you and i. and oh it is a sweet sweet sound to hear your voice. been a week since i've been in singapore. oh yes its nice. and i pray for the week to come to be slow. very slow. for it all to allow me to enjoy my time to spend with sweets, family and friends. i got a hell lot of things to do, and it all seemed endless. now and then, trying to get it all fix the way i want, but it all goes like how wires look. anyway. i had fun and heaps of laughter with my folks and family. was dining at royal china @ raffles hotel yesterday. oh food was good. but, i was eating from 8 to 10.30pm! gawsh! three and a half hours of eating. total guessing of fats input right? haah. going to newton circus for dinner in 2-3 hours. again, we're eating! our family are so much of eating and shopping and eating. play and eating again. boy oh boy. oh yes. i'll be going back to school tmr. and visiting friends and teachers to0, then watching you me and dupree with sweets. right. i shall start my planning again. on what i want and must do by this week.

2006-09-22T16:04:00.000+08:00

just had dinner. and boy it's earlier. we had dinner at 4.40pm today. ten mins later than yesterday. dinner here is always early. anyways. it's the last day of the week and yay! i'm glad. so glad! and tests are all over. oh i can't wait! i just can't! in seven days i'll be back in singapore. seeing family, him, cell and sch mates. yay! missed you guys badly. so bad. haha. boy oh boy. i was trying to plan this massive shopping spree with aunt and besties. but i'm not sure if it'll happen cause besties are having o's now, and aunt's working too. but i just hope i do. and i wish i wish. i wish we(class of 2006-4D), could go mrs ravi's house have some fun and partayeing. yay. can't wait. haha. hey mr chairman! plan it for me. yes yes? and grandpa's turning eighty in october. happy birthday ye ye! i miss my grandparents so much. oh awesome people! and aunt heidy. i love you! (((:
and the first thing i'll do on sunday is to meet up with cell and cousin denise! missed ya'll. (x and monday. getting crazy in school when i go see my mates and teachers. yay. i just can't wait. so excited!

2006-09-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

'im in school now. and i'm counting down till the day i leave aussie for singapore. been aniticipating for so long. and boy. i'm surely going backto school for a day or two to study with my folks. totally misssed you guys. anyway. it must be prelims now, right? for my sec 4 babies. and for me, its exam week now too. like it has been the past two weeks and now. boy. just had a boilogy test. going to have maths apps right after lunch. not so good, huh? its english now. but yeah. its not too bad. anyways. i got 5 packs of freddos yesterday. 2 packs for 4D and the rest i'll sort it out when i'm back. haha. oh 'm bored. gonna search the web for more stuffs. will update again. sorry, its faux messiness!

2006-09-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

i'm finally blogging my entry properly. and not in any other unknown language. hah. well, it's week 8 already. 2 more weeks till i get back to Singapore! yay. ((: oh i'm bored and stressed. college isn't that easy i must say. its TOUGH! well well, you never know how much i can ever cope. i have three tests tmr! can you believe it? i never had so many test back in singapore. and the thing that sucks most is when i have to write a 400 word essay in chinese on the White Australian Policy. that is so crap! how could my teacher have even thought of it? i'm so full or historical content in me now. australian studies is dued tmr, and the draft i wrote was totally wrong. not what my teacher wanted. and thus, re-writing it again is another horror. sucha a sweet ruin, isn't it? oh boy. i just hate such stuff when it all piles up on me. i know. part of life, you say. ugh.
and in a hour, heaps of people are coming over to my place for dinner. dad and mum invited hem. and now what, i can't get help from mom for chinese. instead i get noise in return! 4 in 1 isn't it? bonus return of noise. and now, i'm wrecking my brains hard enough my hair's all c0ming of it's roots! oh wednesday.
i really would appreciate if i'm given a extended week to do these stuff. but no. i can't! my oh my, a beautiful day. sucha idiot.

2006-09-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

more than a month since i last updated my entry! woo. long. well, life here is pretty alright. just anticipating my return to singapore！ oh yay. can't wait!oging back on the 30th of sept! yay!（（：
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2006-08-12T10:26:00.000+08:00

saturday morning. admits, i'm still rather tired though. haha. anyways. went to warrawong wildlife sanctuary for excursion with all my australian studies friends. had a great time there. went high and really see how gorgeous nature was. eventhough i've seen it many times before in australia, but yesterday was really different. probably because... i don't know too. my own stuffs i guess.
alrights. back to my stay here so far. well, it's pretty good though. ahah. made many friends. all really nice jovial people. oh i cant wait! wed i'm turning 16! apple and cai ying and shima and ahmad and SHAN! my birthday present in oct ya?haha. i'm waiting... *laughs* i'm serious i tell you all! haha.

2006-08-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

alrighties. it's already the 6th of august. how quick. oh yay! sweet sixteen, here i come! *hint hint* haha. a ten days countdown i suppose. haha. uh oh. school's starting tmr. crap! i got heaps lot of research and work to do. so much. way too many already. but it's life! oh bother!
anyways. life so far's good. i'll be going for an excursion next fri to warrawong. if i'm right in that spelling. well, it's in the hills. more like a nature reserved park kinda thing. and i'm really excited too! will be going with the two australian studies class. which means, all of us are non-australians. international people form many countries. ooo. see, how cool's that?! guess we're all gonna have heaps of fun. heard from my teacher miss mastins that we'll be climbing hills and learning bout some birds or something. the best thing is that we needn't go school! hahahah. as in. we needn't attend any lessons for friday, cos we're all going for an excursion! yay!
oh i can't wai! happy, happy, happy! ((: haha. i know. i'm always getting all fascinated by such small lil stuff. but that's the way i am!
i'm getting to know so much people here now. it's fun. but i must say, i must be wise too. in making friends. seriously must know who to stay away rom, and whom you can be close to. it's really a good place to be at. and i enjoy myself. all i can't wait now, besides the excursion is the 7 WEEKS to come! and i'llbe going back to singapore! hoorays! everyone! await my coming okay!? i miss you all! ugh. i can't wait. can't!

2006-08-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

okay. fourth day of school. well, i must say today's really fun. and everythings going on smoth. thank God for that. so how's everybody send me emails and all, yes?
bout myself. school's good. i mean meeting more and MORE new friends day by day. and it's couse selection period. selection for courses i would like to do in year 12 before entering university. i know. fast, ya? time flies really quick and fast. and everythings going on so well for me. well family and i are still hunting for a house and all. but we know, God will provide. HE will. definately.
well, my first friend i met at school was these two lovely siblings---cindy and evan. i mean, yeah. it was at the uniform shop. but gradually we go to school and go home together. mum was praising me about after 16 years of ym entire ife, did i bring my lunch to school. well, i really hope i did not have to, but canteen food's crazy! it's way too expensive. somehow, i learnt to eat bread which i NEVER done so in singapore. for those who know me really well. btu now i do eat bread! *claps!* haha.
i met this other girl in my class, ZOE! oh she's GORGEOUS! really sweet and beautiful girl. we were from buddies as she had to show me around school, and bring me to my classes andf all. preU's way too different here. and we go recess and lunch together, with our group of friends. yeah. everythings lovely and nice here. i like it here. and startign to see the beauty of God's creation in Adelaide.
everythings going on all smooth here. and i totally love it. worries free, and friends here are awesome! glory goes to God. really. if it werent for the Lord, nothing so smooth would have had happen. ((:
i miss everyone in singapore. i mean everyone. too amny to list. but i really hope i can meet up with most of you guys in october? i really miss you all! really do.

2006-07-28T19:03:00.000+08:00

well. it's the second day of school you see. man. honestly, first day's pretty much of a horror for me. everythings so so diff here. the school kinda rock in a way, and kinda suck pretty much too. well. the cool part is. the sch do not care how you wear your uniform, so long as you wear it to sch. and, the teachers are really nice. fierce, some of them. of cos. teachers are teachers.
however, to my surprise, even though this is a very good and well known school in adelaide, australia, but... you never will expect what they do in sch. yes, a lil racism, maybe. to the very minority. but to me. nothings happened so far. i thank God for His devine protection and all. ((: thank you, Lord. but you know. you will never wonder how open the students get. they make out in school! and so long you're in senior year, like me. year 11-12, you don't have to worry bout anything in school. the teachers don't give a damm on whatever you do.
the kids here have really terrible respect for each other. how do i put it? u dont have to greet the teachers and all. u just get into the class and lessons starts. but at least when u needa go out of the class during a lesson, you get to sign this student movement thing on your hand book. so thats pretty good. and when the bell goes, you can just leave the class like that. my. pretty much of a culture shock to me! so much i tell you. oh and. there's this girl. my. she can somewhat unbutton her shirt down to her chest with this striking bra, and my biology teacher got so frutrated that she had to ask her button her shirt up.
well. the kids here do anything in school. so what its a good school? students still don't behave like they supposed to be. oh wells. too much affection shown. i guess.

2006-07-19T15:41:00.000+08:00

woke up pretty early this morning. went to the south australians auctions to bid for cars today. my. they are all brand new. and i must say, it's not cheap nor expensive. it's pretty okay. but definately cheaper than those you can find in singapore. without a car here, you won't get to go anywhere! haha. okay. sacarsm in it. well. reached home at around 13130 today. then headed for lunch. as usual, im eating. like always. haha. anyways, today wasn't much of fun and all. supposingly going to shop today, but we were all lazy so didn't go. man. i missed singapore! i really do. but i'm starting to like here too. its really nice, and paceful. i mean, you can do things at your own time. but definately, laziness steps in! hah.

2006-07-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

it's 6.34 currently. yes i know. i've not been blogging much. but i'm so so sorry uguys. it's really cold here. hearing from dad and mum's friends, adelaide has never gone down to less that 10 degrees before. esp, in the night! brrr. however, i'm adjusting quite well to the weather here. just that i miss you all. everyone in singapore. esp my oh-so-crazy class! haha. how ahve you guys been and mrs ravi? i can't wait for october! i'm coming back on the first, i suppose.
guys! you must come here to adelaide. it's pretty fun for me though. though it's coming to two weeks since i left. gawd, it's fast! okay. but. i've spend some good time here shopping at their oh so very famous rundle street. something like singapore's busy orchard road. and at downtown where you get direct brand shopping outlet to choose from. and everything you buy is at warehouse sales price. you know how cheap that is? VERY CHEAP! man. you wouldn't want to miss it. what have you, huh? haha. and htings here are at steep prices as you know it's not only develop here, but also more. how to you put it? civilised. yes. civilised. things here either are really expensive or dirt cheap! haha. man. when you guys come here, you guys are gonna loev ti if you're looking for shopping. i'm sure you will. i'll be your guide. haha. that's it for today. loves. update soon. promise!

2006-07-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

hey all. it's 9.32pm here. it's the 3rd day for me. and it's WINTER! man! im sorry. i know i should have updated earlier on but really am busy. i try to go online as much as i can to talk to you guys in the evening around 6-7 plus singapore time. tim e difference here is about one hour and thirty minutes. at different season, time changes as well. i'm currently putting up at my parents' friend's place for two weeks and will be moving to this place we rented for half a year, at Linden Park. that'll be next weekend i guess. well, you guys can always email me and all, okay? send me letters too! it's the address i gave you guys. that's the place i'll be putting up in the next half a year to a year before my family finds a suitable a house. i gotta go now. will update again! i miss my besties, my fries gang, 4D, mrs ravi and beloved SHAN KAMAL! will update again. loves.

2006-05-13T14:28:00.000+08:00

just had tuition. now just resting. yes resting. sucha lovely day isn't it? it's pouring lightly and the air is cool and calm. oh how i love this weather! yet, i'm missing you at a distance. must be having loads of fun there yes? see, i told you. you wouldn't ruin anything, neither will you be mad at them still. and i'm glad you no longer are. their family after all... yes? ((:
how i missed you so. still am. i just got your text. and i'm jealous you are going canoeing. SWEETS! bring me go canoeing too! somehow, eventhough i'm afraid of water, but you've helped me overcome it whenever i'm with you. thank you sweetest! i missed you so much!
sucha bore studying at home. with so many thousands of words right in front of me. so many formulas, and equations. so many memory work to be done. you're always helping me in remembering them, but now it seems all so hard for the to be stuck in my head. i wonder how'd you did it. just how did you make me remember them? oh ain't you good? haha.

wondering the stillness of you at there...
staring into the oh-so-thin air...
missing the every part of you...
awaiting your return...

2006-04-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

i want you to know that I MISS YOU so! ((:
i really do!

2006-04-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

Life Begins,
a blank canvas.

And there you are,
the painter of your own world.

Individual brushstrokesadd texture to life,
a wonderful spectrum of coloursreflect the choices we make,

the choices that tell our story.
And behold - and Masterpieces unique as we are.

The very beginning of you and i.

till then, we won't.

2006-03-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

strawberries dipped in hot malt chocolate. i want!

2006-03-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

meeting up with part of the fries people yesterday. went peninsular with shan in search of that ulu ulu cd shop, then to esplanade, then meet up with kabeer sir and mr undercover, IZWANO! haha. and we went pasir ris to just hang out awhile before going to church. never knew there were so many places in singapore itself, that i've never been to before. haha. i feel like sucha introvert this way. haha. anyway, yesterday was fun. had a lot of rubbish la. and kabeer sir, as usual. he and his nonsense. shan, he and his laughetr that tingers up all in me, makes me laugh so much. and that izwan. forever on his phone. we all know la, huh? haha. been like going out almost everyday this week though. to school, then out. haha.
been a logn time since i talked to qayyum. as in really talk. kinda miss you boy. but it seems so weird whenwe talk now ever since "that" incident. if you're reading this, you'll know la. and ever since "that" incident, that i decided to back off, it all ended sour. i'm glad for you and her. as in everythings going on well now. and i'm glad for you la. i mean you two. maybe we've not been talking much cause i guess i didn't want to be like her. if you know what i mean. i don't want to be stuck in that triangle thingy. well yum, you said i changed, but i didn't quite think so. i just know that i have to be like this to avoid all un-necessary conflicts between you and her. i'm doing this for you, by the way. if you'd never knew. but it's okay la. i'll still be here for you when you need me. ((:
take care qayyum. see ya at school.

2006-03-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

from 3 to 9. the totalness of light to darkness. there they go from serangoon to plaza sing, then to esplanade and to serangoon,again.
you see the highness in us, when we realised that people are giving us weird stares. snapping continuous shots of pictures. and singing, screaming and waiting for leader kabeer sir to come. and then we were hoping to meet thamdi. but we didn't. haha. thank you for yesterday, shan. rock on. ((:

2006-03-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

if i wrote it in words into a book.
how wonderful life is, that you're in my book...
and i will fly one day,
leaving from dream to dream... ...

2006-03-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

this post ultimately goes out to BASIRAH. hey girl. i just really want to apologise if i've hurt you in any way. i know my previous post was a pretty big 'woo-hah' . and maybe i've phrased my sentences wrongly. i know you're really hurt, i'm sorry. i was really upset in some way or another too.
girl, i just want to tell you that qayyum's really worried for you. and maybe you could drop him a call? he seems pretty distracted due to the lack of your presence though. see, how important you are! ((: yra darling, i admit i'm mad about the picture thingy, about last november/december till to date, and... i was really mad that you came between me and qayyum... but thinking about it, it's all in the past, and that probably last night was one of our (us three) dreadful nights. i do know that we've did hurt each other indirectly somehow or another, and i really apologise for in any way that i've upset you.
i also know i've got no rights in coming into you and qayyum, but. i really hope that you two remain as close and that the friendship doesn't goes down the drain. all the best to your O's this year, and to you and him, i guess? haha. i'm sorry yra sweetheart. and remember to get back to qayyum! you're important to him! i can tell! (so jealous of you two! *aww*) haha.

dedicated to yra, from: nathania. ((;

2006-02-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

it's been a week or two since i last blogged. been having pretty busy weeks lately. seems like everyday's packed. and i'm only free on sunday evenings. for just time with my family and i. which i value them alot. ((:
there's been this nanyang poly girl news going about. which i guess it has reached the top headlines for this month in Singapore. i don't think that all the blame should be faulted on her though. but why do the majority think so? i think she's not much at fault. instead those that have n\been putting the video on the net, and sending via bluetooth are making more embarrassment for her.
well, i shouldn't say much. i have no rights to say about this anyway.
okay back to life. had a huge quarrel with yum on sat. but we resolved it soon after. it was because of HER! she just seems to spoil my everything la. first, she snatched him. next, she took him away and made me feel all depressed and helpless. the thought of it just make me fill so much with anger. she took the pict i took of him, and LABELLED THE TITLE the SAME as me!? what the hell! just what do you want la? haven't you got enough of yourself? GET A LIFE, girl! get a grip of yourself, please. you haven't got anything cleared yet huh? such a pain you are!!!

2006-02-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

miles just keep rolling.
and you keep floating.
and please don't take away my love.
i dream about you all the time.
you're still with me in ym dreams.
but i'm here without you.
why?
no i'm trying to fade away.
i'm trying to fade away the current.
but the more i try, the more i love you.
i love you no matter what.
so when you turn away, and not talk to me,
i feel so distant.
i feel a feeling of being void and thrown to a side.
you don't know what's on my mind.
because i never told you.
i dare not to, yum...
understand?

2006-02-14T10:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, ALL!
LOVES... ((:

2006-02-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

i sat at a table in the back corner with my friend, steaming mochas in both of our hands. We were both engaged in a lively conversation about the evening's performance of bands we had just witnessed, and kept bursting out in little snippets of song.This didn't seem to bother the people around us, also having lively conversations about the little this and that's. some on their life, and others on work or things happened in school.
and so school, for my friend and i, was just a little of study, and the rest fun. as we sip our coffee, we just felt the ambience was just so good. so good that you don't really want to go home. The place was buzzing when we got there. The small downstairs was packed with people waiting in line for some of its locally famous gelato. Gelato is Italian ice cream that is extra creamy because no air has been whipped into it. My friend and I both opted for chocolate, took our purchases and went upstairs to savor it. drinking a few more cups of mochas and just watching the people pass by the glass window. you'll never expect yourself to see how amny different and interesting people they are. seriously. watch people. it's a joy. everyone has something that stands out in them. be it- beauty, height, size or even hair and style! it's a new hobby i've found. thank you friend...

2006-02-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

hokies! been a long time since i last updated huh? haha. sorries. well, life's going pretty mundane. maybe more to downs? i don't know. i guess. but, it's the chhenah new year now! haha. so i'm suppose to be happy getting the red packets! okay. yes i am. ahha. but i'm like severly eating alot la. GREAT! weight problem now. haha.
watched GhostShip at shan's place yesterday.was freaking shocking la. as in everything happened so fast. ugh. and there was deafenign screams by shima and i. haha. and the guys(qayyum, shan, izwan, iskandar and jordan) haha. they were like shock la. haha. but fun la. the whole day was just spent that way.
anyway. i really want to share a song la. your revolution is a joke. man. i love the song so much! haha. seriously good. thanks to shan. really. the songs like stuck in my head! haha. ((:

2006-01-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

raining lately, yeah? haha. i remeber telling my girls that on rainy days, that's when girls get SEXY! haha. i think it's so real la. i mean, truly it is. well, i'n down with cough, flu and sore throat. and it's really a bad throat la. as in i lost my voice. i can't quite talk, but... and... haha. that's when the handphone comes so much in handy! haha. i've not been mugging at all. terrible huh? i know. i'm just lazy and don't feel like studying. most likely after chinese new year.
oh i CAN'T wait! haha. here i come, BIG FAT RED PACKETS! haha.
the rain somehow been like dragging the days longer. and i'm all tired and bored. when will the sun be shinning brightly and i see dry ground? ahahah. man man. and i've been feeling my head's way too heavy for me to carry it now la. ugh! and i've been going to town pretty often for lunch this week. tomorrow's meet the parent session! crap!

2006-01-01T14:53:00.000+08:00

oh and a new year! haha. a ablessed 2006 to all! i'm sorry for not blogging much. but i'll try to as much as possible ya? well. christmas was great! spent the day out wit my girls. and i stayed at my uncle's place at yishun with my whole family. just got back yesterday. we stayed there cos our house water pipe burst, somehow. and it was really inconvenient. well, anyway. i'm back here alrd la. haha. ((:
i'm so glad for this new year. i'm turning 16! oh my! haha. and it's the crucial year for all o level candidates. *sighs* but it's alright la. haha. i mean we shall all just mug hard and do well ya? ((; i miss school. and all my funky friends. miss ya all! (appple, cai ying, calean, shima, nicole, nasiha, wardah, yum... and lots others la. just naming the few that never fail to cheer me up) and so much other all over school, church and outside peeps. haha. *yay_ness* *laughs*
and so, i'm so excites. totally psyched! haha. oops!
this year's no longer being mundane anymore. cause this will be my last study year in singapore alrd. but it's okay. i'll still contact ya'll and update my blog. promise! haha.
i'll update again. SOON! alright. to my dirty seret partners: my besttayehs! ((x
i love you both! and also. see her glow! she's such a beau! haha. ((:

2005-12-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

you said this song was for me: when i'm gone.

[Intro]YeahIt’s my life But all in words I guess [Verse 1] Have you ever loved someone so much you’d give an arm for?Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?When they know they are your heartAnd you know you are their armourAnd you will destroy anyone who will try to harm herBut what happens when karma turns right around and bites youAnd everything you stand for turns on you to spite youWhat happens when you become the main source of her pain“Daddy look what I made?”“Dad’s gotta go catch a plane”“Daddy where’s mummy? I can’t find mummy, where is she?”I don’t know, go play, Hailie baby your daddy’s busy.Daddy’s writin’a song, this song ain’t gon’ write itselfI give you one underdog, then you gotta swing by yourselfThen to write a rhyme in a song and tell her you love herAnd put hands on her mother who’s a spittin’ image of herThat’s slim shady, yeah baby slim shady’s crazyShady made me, but tonight, Shady’s rock-a-by baby[Chorus] [x2]And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn,rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voiceJust know that I’m lookin’ down on you smilingAnd I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back[Verse 2]I keep havin’ this dream – I’m pushin’ hailie on the swings she keeps screamin’She don’t want me to sing, “You’re makin mummy cry, why, why’s mummy crying?”Baby, Daddy ain’t leavin’ no more,“Daddy you’re lying,You always say that, you always say this is the last time,but you ain’t leavin’ no more, Daddy you’re mine!”She’s piling boxes infront of the door tryin’ to block it,“Daddy please daddy don’t leave daddy no, stop it!”Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket, it’s got a picture,“This’ll keep you safe daddy, take it with you”I look up, it’s just me standin in the mirror, these fucking walls must be talkin coz man I can hear ‘emThey sayin you got one more chance to do right, and it’s tonight,Now go out there and show ‘em that you love ‘em ‘fore its too lateAnd just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door it turns to a stage, they’re goneAnd the spotlight is on and I’m singin…[Chorus] [x2]And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn,rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voiceJust know that I’m lookin’ down on you smilingAnd I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back[Verse 3]Sixty thousand people, all jumpin’ out their seatThe curtain closes, they’re throwing roses at my feetI take a bow, “and thank you all for comin’ out”They’re screamin so loud, I take one last look at the crowdI glance down, I don’t believe what I’m seein’,“Daddy it’s me! Help mummy her wrists are bleedin’”But baby we’re in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?!“I followed you daddy, you told me that you wern’t leavinYou lied to me dad, and now you make mummy sadAnd I bought you this coinIt says ‘number 1 dad’, that’s all I wantedI just wanna give you this coinI get the point, fine, me and mummy are goin”But baby wait-“its too late dad, you made your choice. Now go out there and show ‘em you love ‘em more than usThat’s what they wantThey want you Marshall, they keep screamin your name, it’s no wonder you can’t go to sleepJust take another fuckin pill, yeah i bet ya you willYou rap about it. Yeah word, ke-keep it real”I hear applause, all this time I couldn’t seeHow could it be that the curtain is closing on meI turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it, put it to my brain, scream ‘Die Shady!’ and pop it The sky darkens, my life flashes, The plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashesThat’s when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin',There’s birds singin’, it’s spring andHailie’s out side swingin’I walk right up to Kim and kiss her, tell her I miss herHailie just smiles and winks at her little sister, almost as if to say-[Chorus] [x2]And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn,rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voiceJust know that I’m lookin’ down on you smilingAnd I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back.

2005-12-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

was another day that i'm so excited to meet hima nd see what's going on and all. those lil suprises he'll give me and all. it was all ordinary till the afternoon that came so dreadful and screwed.
i was merely upset that he deleted his picture from my phone. and i show that i was angry. okay, i guess that was my fault. but i did tell him that i was sorry bout wad happened and all. so many countless times. but he hung up on me with just two words "i'm sorry."
is that all i deserve? two words? im being so patient in this whole thang through the past months, yet... sighs. i don't know la. from the start i realised i've never really understood what you were thinking. cause at times in this, and in a split second, it's another thing. another that. so wad is it?
i never knew. i never thought, i never was told. and so was it me fumbling alone? being ostracized, ALONE? or was it you!?! you leaving me all alone? what is it?
i never believe in fate or luck. any of those sort. i always believe everyone is made by God's love. i hate to take things in a negative way. likewise, to this. and so, i know that everything done or undone if not compared to the multitudes in heaven. yes, i'm upset and fretting over all these stuffies. but why am i getting myself feeling so drowny when i have you, Lord. i have my family and friends too.

whatever the case. i don't wish to think bout it now. tomorrow's gonna be the last chance. one it's over, it's GONE!

how can sheim!

2005-12-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

sheim is a mixture of she+him=sheim. anyways. that's just crap. man, my phone just died on me this MORNING! oh my rein deer! how can sheim la!!! i was pissed pressing the start button for half and hour. and irritatingly, the phone left me all ostracized ALONE! ugh.
mummy told me that my cousin gave us her LG phone months ago. she barely used it. and it looks so new. i mean, BRAND NEW! alright, there was indeed a little excitement in the NEW phone la. but c'mon. my 150 contacts left saved in my panasonic phone's gone. and now i only have the 250 contacts that are saved in my sim card. so people, if you guys read this, do drop me a sms, yes? and tell me who you are too. cause i can't remember some of ya numbers too. sorry guys.
okay, so i went to town today with my family and my aunt and 2 cousins. bought stuff for my siblings, and TOMORROW we're going SHOPPING for our stuffs! *yay!* haha. and we got stuck on the road for an hour la. gawsh. im in my cousin's place now. and i gotta go. she wanna use the comp, and i need ta bathe. haha. oops!
oh and sms me, people!

cornerstone

2005-12-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

cornerstone church camp 2005 ended today.

to my abba father:

thank you Lord for revealing to us so much of what L.I.F.E. is all about and all. and for a safe trip from Desaru Pulai, Kota Tinggi, back here, to Singapore. praise you Lord for your marvellous works amongst us the past four days and showing us how much we meant to you. ((:

alrights. bout the camp, it was G-R-E-A-T! haha. serious. had all the fun and the BEST thing was that God never fail to be there with us. each of us felt him and his presence. the holy spirit working in us so powerfully.
lets see. the grosses thang in the camp were the games i guess. games under " wet wet soap" was awfully disgusting! we played with raw eggs passing 'em through water hoses, scooping sea water in cups with our mouths and transporting toothpaste with our faces, necks, hands, knees and feets! YUCK! gross-out so much. but we all still played. had loades of fun and bonding between our teams and the other teams. ((x
"chronicles of the kings" was pretty alright. i was the QUEEN of the GREEN nation la. haha. no one expected it. cause i guess i was such a slacker in that game. haha. i just took the responsibility of making the sandcastles. it was AWESOME! gawsh! ((;

the sermons were great too! so inspiring. and the worship that led all of us into a time of HIS. and i love you, LORD.

and a BIG thank you to the camp committee, worship team, and for all the campers that made the camp possible! you go people!

and to all EL-ROI members:

you all definately did a great job by encouraging each other, and man, i miss you guys. remember that HE's our God that sees. EL-ROI he is. our Jehovah Jireh.

1st December, that is.

2005-12-01T11:03:00.000+08:00

it's so boring at home. man, trust me. i seriously agree more on going to school or out to town than staying at home. but i gotta go for jab later. i think it's the hepatitis jab. i had one in june and i'm suppose to go back again today. 1st December, that is.
waiting for his call. it's taking him long. anyway, my house so crowded. with all the small kids. boys; talking of gaming stuff which i don't wish to know. the girls; whereas, they are playing their barbie dolls, and playing pretend. oh how i miss childhood. when i was trouble-free. also, i was playing with my cousins, having all the fun and laughter. playing pretend and some really childish games la. was so cute then.
seeing how the girls play really do remind of childhood, and how i was last time. and here i am, now, sitting in front of the computer blogging this! man, i've seen how much i grew.
well, everyone did. ((:

INCOMPLETE.

2005-11-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

Empty spaces
Fill me up with holes
Distant faces
With no place left to go
Without you
Within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going Is anybody's guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
I am swimming In an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby It's written on your face
You still wonder If we made a big mistake

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't want to make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go
(oh no)
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Incomplete

the past is real.

2005-11-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

scars reminds us that the past is real. so real, and so true. ((: at times how you wish you got all what and want. but reality that is, it's fake. it's false. you'd never get what you desire unless you work for it i guess... i ain't sure...
well. we started talking again on sunday. msn, phone. but was a pretty short one. then followed by monday, tuesday, wednesday, today... and we got back together. i definately did hesitated for a while. but, it's alright. we talked things out, and talked things through. now everythings just fine. ((; and i'm glad it is now. i surely would not want to brood bout what happened. cos was a total denial and bluff.
was a total turn off thing towards me. i tried to avoid it, but it kept coming back. many, many times i tried to leave it, but after awhile, it floats back into my mind again. you and me. with no other people. and i can't keep my eyes off you.
things are back. but there's still lots for us to catch up. i don't know why. but
it just seem so yesterday. but i'm thankful. and i promise you i'll treasure you...

that book.

2005-11-18T17:11:00.000+08:00

was a pretty heavy morning for me. i don't know why. but my heart sank so deep the moment i got out of my house. and i was all heavy and felt so moodles and restless. i asked myself: what's wrong? it couldn't be him. nor could it be my emotions getting all over my mind.
and so, i thought maybe that it could be the bio presentation or the report books. that book. gawsh. it's total horror for many. well, somesort, i believe that. i don't know how come i just let imaginations rule over me sometimes. and sometimes, i just don't know what on earth i really am thinking which cause so much misery and pain. but i must admit i'm recovering. yes i know. some are suprised and shocked. but hey, it's me. nathania. i'm strong and courageous remember? haha. ((:
and i'm always the one who brings you guys joy. so definately, i wouldn't be sad and stressed too. i've cried it all out the past two days. no more tears flow down my eyes already. ever since yeterday, i realised i was strong. i realised i've matured and grown.
though, i'm still left clueless and unanswered. i pray and really wish him the best in relationships to come. and for his O's next year. and i want to thank apple, cai ying, calean, shima, dexter and izwan for your continual encouragements and also your love! haha. man, you guys rock BIG time!

that yesterday.

2005-11-17T11:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday. yes yesterday. i was all worried for you. you left without a notice. nor did you tell me what was wrong, and the next moment you left me. and that's all i know. i cried and had sleepless nights. i ate little. i called and smsed you to check out what was wrong. yet, no one told me. and you too! that's the thing.
to be frank, qayyum i really did miss you. but somehow is fading away. so far. but it's not my fault. i don't know what the hacked happened. but i was definately much more worried for you than i am angry. anyway. you were the one who chose me, wanted me, love me, care for me and put your whole heart in to me. but i don't know what really happened.
you denied it was your friends that made the huge impact and influence towards you. i don't know. maybe you indeed needed and want to have a break for awhile. i'm left clueless and unknown. now i learnt to be strong. i learn not to break nor to fumble. i learnt to be who i am last time. the strong brave girl that you knew. well, i'm gonna be that rose amongst the thorns. i will...

slipped and slopped.

2005-10-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

started raining heavily in the afternoon. was at church almost 2/3 of today. went for CHINESE service. daddy was preaching. ahha. and it was suprisingly in CHINESE. well, i must say he did improved alot. GREAT job, daddy!
did stuffies for next sunday's mission week. did three fairies' wheel. was for the china mission team. i was in it. this is all i can help now. i can't anymore next year. cos' i won't be here. anyways. was fun with the phunkilicious tania! gawsh you're good. thanks for all the effort guys. ((:
it's been a slip slop thang ever since the fasting month started. cos i'm missing him. we still meet up and all. thank goodness. if not, i'll be so crap. he seemed so far yet he's always by me. :D he's the SWEETEST! serious. you'd never met someone like him. but i'm glad i did.
anyways, ends were over on friday. now the only stress i'll be getting is da results. i've done my best, so i'll just wait and see. thank you Lord, for guiding me through my papers!

was boredom...

2005-09-18T12:22:00.000+08:00

i'm all tann now. after last week's ouward bound singapore. no denial, was great! had fun and get to meet new people. haha. kayaked for 16 hours in total. my skin's peeling now. haha. well, kinda gross i must say.
this week's a little too draggy and slow. and the sun's giving me a headache. luckily is raingin now. haha. ((: i've started to mug lately. exams are in 2 weeks! crap. is real fast. somehow. the vibe's not there yet. i don't know why. but, soon be i hope...
just for YOU to know...
i know next month's gonna be tough, but we'll pull through together, yes? and that you got me. we'll just abide by the rules and follow them. don't matter what others say. cos' we're not letting them affect us. the heart was made just for you. no one else...

yes. it was.

2005-08-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

it's those normal old school days when school people chirp and have fun. sing and laugh. wail and get mad. well. today's special for three lucky people. first to my "HOT babe" cousin yu jia. FANTASTIC 15th!!! and to cousin Denise and her dearest Nicholas, HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! *cheers* haha. congrats dearies. love my both sweetie pie cousins! and that i've seriously loved you both alot. i really do! and i thank GOd for being in this family la. haha. ((:
yes it was by His grace. hee hee.
oh and to you...
you're just to good to be true. you rock BIG time! i hope you know i'm referign to you.

19th August.

2005-08-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

hokays. it's three days after my birthday, and i'm a year oldeeer la. haha. anyways, everyone goes through that la. so it's really alright. been the usual me. cheerful and HIGH the usual way. seriously cliche as it may be, i'm doing the same stuff everyday, but i don't feel bored of doing it. yes, still hanging out in town, chilling and cafes and at the malls with my friends. haha. ((: it's fun lahs.
yeah. i can't wait for SUNDAY! :O because... ... i got this free pass to the movies to catch HERBIE with my cell, and we will be chauffered by a VOLKSWAGEN to town! oh my gawd! guess how exciting that could be la. as in we're like little royalties that day! i'm so excited! haha. ((;
and i'm glad i did well for my guitar exam la. though was a mini one, but everything went well, and my instructor was impressed! hee hee. *laughs* okay. enough bout me. but still, i want to thank my babes for giving my last birthday here a memorable one! i love you both!
and to you. you're my TOWER of STRENGTH! ((:

Happy National Day, all!

2005-08-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

Happy 40th Singapore! haha. okay. i sound patrotic. but why not la. been not coming online and using the comp. really lazy you see. bored too. anyways. i went to Festival of Praise! haha. ((: was GREAT!!! seriously it was. haha.
thanks to calvin and nicky man. if not, i doubt we'll ever get in. thanks guys! haha. :D sorry to make you two go so early larhs. haha.
went to see my one month old Godniece today. she's so freaking cute la. and crap. i'm a aunt now lo. so weird. haha. and i had to large servings at the buffet this afternoon la. haha. oh my gawsh! *roars*
been seriously enjoying myself since don't know when. but i did. i'm a free bird. hey my two dArlings. this sunday's coming! it's gonna be PARTY time girls! let's have our whackiest time the next...hmmm.. 6 months okay!? must party la.
okay, maybe 5 months. you know what i mean! ((;
i miss school. i miss my girls. i miss NICOLE; suprisingly. haha. Jaysen, happy fantastic 15th; tomorrow!!!

drizzle weezle.

2005-07-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

been quite awhile since i really updated my blog, huh? haha. sorry man. :(
hmm. been rather relax and well, calm. been a pretty good start for a new term . july's ain't that bad after all. haha. :D just came back from school. thank God. earlier this morning after guitar lessons, i was afraid it would have rained on my way to school, but it didn't. haha. yay! *laughs* had fun at school. i mean wherever i go, it'll be full of surprises la. haha. come on guys, don't perturb over those stuff anymore. it's over la, yes? *smiles* cheer up. don't rue bout it either. wasn't your fault. was some kind of nonsense they claimed. haha. yeah.
oh yes. cai ying and apple, you two. better start saving up, alright? our shopping spree has yet to come. yes, i know i know. Great Singapore Sale's over, but relax la. can still get the stuff we want. ain't much a diff anyway. haha.
soscholl for me, as usual fun and boring at times. but with the babes and studs around. no rubbish. thanks guys. been of great help and encouragement to me. now, we're seriously needing a tamming programme. hahaha. see you all at school on monday. you guys rock BIG time!!!

sick, four in one!

2005-07-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

batam was fun. i'm serious. went parasailing, and on banana boat. did some of the common sea sports with my beloved cousins over the weekend trip to batam. they played many other games but i did not. i was recouperating at the hotel. fell sick that day. i mean friday i already was, but now it's like worst la. that's why you guys didn't see me at school today. had fever, flu, sore troat and cough! sick four in one man! haha. oh wells. anyway will be back at school tomorrow. had loades of fun over the weekends! ((:

NEW blog!

2005-07-12T19:53:00.000+08:00

HEY all! :D yes, i've changed my blog now. do check updates here, from now on. 12/07/2005.